I'm supposed to finish up my assignment but here I am blogging cause I can't put any of my heart into doing. I thought not sending you back would be a better choice so that I wun feel any more worst. But, I felt that, not sending you back today makes me more upset. The thought of having lesser and lesser time being spend together just makes my heart aches and it is just making everything more worst. I just don't understand why is it that I'm like the only one feeling this way or is it not only me?

Everytime we meet up, you always look so tired. I know the reason and I know I should be more understanding. But, the feeling just came up and I just can't stop it. You say everything will be over soon and to look forward to the future. But, the moment I think of the different possible units you will be posted to, I really dunnoe if I should look forward to future. I feel so weak as a woman all of a sudden. I think I'm relying too much on you and without you, I can't stand up. I thought I've changed and trained myself to be strong but it seems like you made all my efforts go into drain.

Feelings also seem to change. I think my pessimistic thinking just can't get away from me. I think I just can't get enough of you. I think my feelings for you are growing non-stop. I think I really need you.

I think I really love you.

Ciao.